So I’m getting really depressed. I think I have a problem. My problem is that I’m cursed.
Cupid came down to earth and shot everyone with arrows but he ran out early. He had enough arrows to shoot me multiple times, but he never managed to shoot anyone coming in my direction.
This is my issue, I fall hard for someone and they just don’t ever catch me. Sometimes they do a pretty good job of stringing me along, but in the end they always cut the rope.
Really, I am beginning to think that there is something seriously wrong with me. I know I’m not exactly normal, but no one really is. Am I really that much more socially awkward than anyone else? Am I really that unattractive? What is it?
Sometimes I feel certain that I am doomed to be single forever. That is how I have been feeling lately. The last couple years could have changed that for me. There actually was someone for once, but now I think that opportunity has slipped away.
And the fucking shitty part is that for once it really isn’t my fault. I’m trying hard here, hard as hell, but maybe it is to little to late. I just don’t know.
So I just don’t know how to find someone, someone that returns my affections that is. Perhaps, I’m to picky or to romantic. But what is so wrong with wanting to have a romantic happily ever after? It seems to work out for everyone else.