Lonely Lonely
by Jason
So I’m getting really depressed. I think I have a problem. My problem is that I’m cursed.
Cupid came down to earth and shot everyone with arrows but he ran out early. He had enough arrows to shoot me multiple times, but he never managed to shoot anyone coming in my direction.
This is my issue, I fall hard for someone and they just don’t ever catch me. Sometimes they do a pretty good job of stringing me along, but in the end they always cut the rope.
Really, I am beginning to think that there is something seriously wrong with me. I know I’m not exactly normal, but no one really is. Am I really that much more socially awkward than anyone else? Am I really that unattractive? What is it?
Sometimes I feel certain that I am doomed to be single forever. That is how I have been feeling lately. The last couple years could have changed that for me. There actually was someone for once, but now I think that opportunity has slipped away.
And the fucking shitty part is that for once it really isn’t my fault. I’m trying hard here, hard as hell, but maybe it is to little to late. I just don’t know.
So I just don’t know how to find someone, someone that returns my affections that is. Perhaps, I’m to picky or to romantic. But what is so wrong with wanting to have a romantic happily ever after? It seems to work out for everyone else.
JASDON IS OK 
In a sort of way, I am going through what you’ve mentioned. I just believe life is picking on some people, teasing them and just not letting them find their true bliss. I hate it! Thing is, when I’m about to be happy, something always happens, and I just can’t reach out and grab it. It’s either that, or my trust issues get in the way. It’s pretty fucked up, but that’s life.
I would like to mention that society and any “good values” have broken up a long time ago. At least when our parents were young, society and good values were in the same ballpark. So what’s my point here?
It’s much harder to find *beautiful* now.
😥 Don’t be sad jason! You’re awesome! 🙂
Jason,
sometimes i feel this way too. that i am not going to be accepted, and that i don’t really fit into anyone’s specific niche. when will i be good enough, or when will i be exactly what someone is looking for?
no one knows what the future holds. but all i can say is that you are a great person jason and you have so much to give to the world. your insight, personality, and genuine kindness enlighten the hearts of individuals everyday. i wouldn’t say this if it wasn’t true.
sometimes life has a funny way of showing us what is “beautiful” or “happily ever after” but for me, to know that i have helped one person, or changed one persons life, seems to be enough. you have done this for me.
in the big scheme of things- its hard to see why things happen the way that they do. but there is a plan for each of us and i want you to know that you helped me with mine.
we often grasp onto the words of someone we care about to find they are empty. know that mine are not.
i believe a whole-hearted thank you is in order.
thanks jason for being an incredible friend.
thanks.
who is this though? : /
is this kathy?
a good friend
is this josh?
wrong you are. keep trying.
wrong again. this is not kathy.